hi, this is my journalll~~

hi there! i've been procrastinating!

been meaning to write for a while, but i've been avoiding it cuz it felt like i'd need to futz around with html and css first. honestly it wasnt that difficult to get it done and now i have a 2nd entry! i have a few other ideas for features i wanna add and stylistic changes i could try, and i invariably spent a good chunk of time messing with just that before i got around to writing 🤭. but the boilerplate is all set now so adding new entries should be pretty simple. i'm thinking this'll make it easier to actually write an entry the next time the urge comes

I've been doing better this week. still feeling a little disconnected, but i'm hoping to meet up with some friends friday, might even meet some new people. maybe getting outta the house will help me get outta my head.

-03/05/2025

gonna leave some thoughts here :3c

sooo uhhh.. i feel like garbage right now. ok to be real i've felt like this for a while now... i think a big part of why is that i've stopped expressing myself. or that's what it feels like to me anyway. people love to shit on cringe, especially online, but i've definitely been in the camp of "kill the part of you that cringes" :)

but i don't know.. i feel like i lost the plot somehow. in my search for self authenticity, i feel more vulnerable than ever, and it scares me.. it feels so totally overwhelming
..hahaha... i knew this was gonna be hard, but i went forward anyway.

anyway... im gonna fight the power the urge to curl up into a ball and never again be perceived. so i started working on this page a few days ago (i've cried a buncha times while making it, but i was actually able to cry for once so that's nice -‿- )

this feels like a good place to leave the page for now :)
-02/24/2025